Halloween is finally here. It is particularly intense this year because there is a full moon. Not only that, it’s a Blue Moon! (A Blue Moon is the second full moon to occur in a month.)

Please try to take super good care of yourself. Stay as safe as you possibly can; be aware of your surroundings, shield yourself from triggers, stay in touch with safe people, and remember your terrified parts and try to soothe them.


I feel I have been spending a lot of time being angry at the lasting physical harm ritual abuse causes us: it’s not over when it is over. At least I have been spending a lot of time writing about it! I have also been spending a lot of time hand-washing the delicate rayon and gauzy cotton summer clothes I love so and digging out warmer clothes from the obscure places I put them last spring. And the cat has been barfing in odd places, a little here, a little there. I am quite aware that I cannot blame everything on the cult.

Something different caught my attention, something I had never heard of. Somebody told me about “DeprogramWiki: Identifying and Deprogramming Undetectable Mind Controls.” I don’t know enough about government/military mind control because my mind control experiences were very, very different. My mind was simply used as a blackboard to sketch out programming systems and see which ones looked promising.

This site is a fountain of information (and some misinformation.) I’ve been sampling different parts of the site, reading a little here, a little there. Except for svali’s latest book, “It’s Not Impossible,” which I have been reading start to finish – well, middle to start to middle, back to reading something I had already read, to middle, and finally to finish.

About the books – I do know that svali gave permission to publish her latest book, but I don’t know if Fritz Springmeier or other authors of copyrighted material reproduced here did. This bothers me as a librarian wannabe.

All of Springmeier’s books are available for download – “The Illuminati Formula Used to Create an Undetectable Total Mind Control Slave,” “Deeper Insights into the Illuminati Formula,” and “Bloodlines of the Illuminati.” If you choose to read these books, be prepared for anti-gay and anti-Semitic material. Use your own experiences and your best judgment in deciding what to believe. Having said that, there is much of value in his work.

In addition to svali’s book, links to all of her blog posts (as far as I can tell) are on DeprogramWiki. They were taken down for several years, and there was no trace of her on the Internet. When she resurfaced, I wrote a blog post about her so others could benefit from her work. Here it is: 

Now, this is very funny. I reread my post, and guess what! I knew about DeprogramWiki back in 2017! I was so happy to find svali that I skipped right over the rest of the material in DeprogramWiki. I’m not embarrassed about forgetting things anymore, so I am not going to rewrite anything to hide my un-remembering. 

I come by my leaky memory honorably. It is a battle scar.

Take your time exploring DeprogramWiki. Mind control programming and deprogramming are heavy-duty reading, and it’s easy to freak yourself out. Me, I am protected from freaking out when I read about mind control. 

How do I do it? It helps that I did not live through these things, for the most part. It is horrendous, but it doesn’t cause flashbacks. When something is too heavy, I simply forget what I read, sentence by sentence. It doesn’t make for productive studying, but it sure is an effective defense.


Here is the Table of Contents of DeprogramWiki. I have eliminated the descriptions of the entries because I did not find them all that helpful. In order to save you frustration, I have also taken out all entries that are not currently on the Web. If you find a page that is on DeprogramWiki but not on the Web, go to and enter the url in the Wayback Machine.


PDF Resources and Downloads
Ritual Abuse and Mind Control – Manipulation of Attachment Needs (PDF Download
Chainless Slaves (PDF Download
Ritual Abuse and Torture in Australia 2006 (PDF Download)
Its Not Impossible – Svali (PDF Download)

Other Links to Blogs and Websites
From the Inside Out 
Surviving Ritual Abuse at Australia
Breaking the Circle of Satanic Ritual Abuse – (Excerpt from the book, plus links to many other mind control pages.)
Ritual Abuse and Mind Control—Kathleen Sullivan
Menawa – Ritual Abuse & How to Heal
Some Indicators of Trauma-Based Mind Control Programming
S.M.A.R.T Healing from Ritual Abuse and Mind Control – From a presentation by Carol Rutz.
Tu’ Takana’s Blog Spot  MK Ultra Survivor – Anya Brigg’s bog
Project MKUltra
Ultra Mk Universal Super Soldier Program
clandestine rage revealed 
End Ritual Abuse 
Inner Peace after Satanic Ritual Abuse
Account of “Brice Taylor” and her daughter “Kelly” (and account of Cathy O’Brien)
THE GREENBAUM SPEECH of D.C.HAMMOND (“Hypnosis in MPD: Ritual Abuse”) 
Wikipedia: Satanic Ritual Abuse
CIA MKULTRA Collection – The Black Vault
Central Intelligence Agency collection : Internet Archive
List of 149 MKULTRA Subprojects (
The People’s History: MK-ULTRA: The CIA and Mind Control
Project Bluebird: Deliberate Creation of Multiple Personality by Psychiatrists by Colin A. Ross M.D. (10-Page Summary)
The Search for the Manchurian Candidate: The CIA and Mind Control: The Secret History of the Behavioral Sciences by John D. Marks (read online at, and in PDF
Mind Control Summary: The Secrets of Mind Control Based on Three Books by Top Mind Control Researchers
CIA Mind Control Experiments
5 Most Shocking CIA Experiments of Project MKULTRA – YouTube
Programmed to Kill by David McGovern (overview)
Programmed to Kill: The Politics of Serial Murder by David McGowan (pdf)</a
Operation Midnight Climax – Wikispooks
Monarch Project | The Conspiracy Wiki
Project Monarch: Nazi Mind Control by Ron Patton
Monarch: The New Phoenix Program (Documentary)
Monarch The New Phoenix Program by Marshall Thomas
Origins and Techniques of Monarch Mind Control – The Vigilant Citizen
Trance-Formation of America by Mark Philips and Cathy O’Brien (PDF)
Thanks For The Memories: The Memoirs of Bob Hope’s and Henry 
Kissinger’s Mind-Controlled Slave by Brice Taylor
The World of Mind Control Through the Eyes of an Artist with 13 Alter Personas (Kim Noble)
[Original Content] MK-ULTRA: The CIA’s research program into ‘Biological Behavioral Engineering’, AKA Mind Control. PART 1: Introduction, Brainwashing, and the Society for the Investigation of Human Ecology
[Original Content] MK-ULTRA: The CIA’s research program into ‘Biological Behavioral Engineering’, AKA Mind Control. PART 2: Unwitting Testing, Entrapment, and the Personality Assessment System
[Original Content] MK-ULTRA: The CIA’s research program into ‘Biological Behavioral Engineering’, AKA Mind Control. PART 3: Hypnotism
original MKULTRA document detailing basic hypnosis techniques (PDF)
original MKULTRA document detailing experiments in hypnotizing children into planting and arming bombs (PDF)
original MKULTRA document describing the creation of a mind controlled killer (PDF)
original Project Artichoke document describing a U.S. government human experimentation program (PDF)


Upcoming Holidays

10/31 Full moon (Blue Moon)
10/31 Halloween/start of Celtic New Year/start of the dark half of the year
11/1 All Saints’ Day
11/2 All Souls’ Day
11/11 Veterans’ Day (?)
11/13 Friday the thirteenth
11/26 Thanksgiving Day (United States)
11/30 Full moon
11/30 St Andrew’s Day
Sundays of advent: 11/28, 12/5, 12/12, 12/19
12/4 Total Solar Eclipse
12/14 Total solar eclipse. Totality will be visible in Chile and parts of Argentina. Partial eclipse will be visible in southern South America and south-east Africa. See
12/18 Full Moon
12/21 Winter solstice/Yule/St. Thomas’ Day
12/24 Christmas Eve
12/5 Christmas Day
12/29 Full moon
12/31 New Year’s Eve

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
11/29 -12/16 Chanukah/Hanukkah  (Jewish Festival of Lights)
(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices, and the equinoxes.)


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Halloween {personal)
Halloween (background)
Yule/Winter Solstice 
Valentine’s Day
Spring Equinox
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Fathers’ Day:
Summer Solstice (corrected text)
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2
Fall Equinox