The Poetry Reading Was AMAZING!

A first event is supposed to have lots of glitches, and then the second one goes much more smoothly. This one had only two glitches.

1. We promised a full hour for Q&A and didn’t have it, so we offered to go an extra 15 minutes

2. I kept forgetting to unmute. And a couple of times I forgot what I was saying. Nobody else had these problems, that I could tell.

Both no big deal!

What was truly amazing was how connected people felt, how grateful to be together. People, including some of the poets, cried together. Nobody wanted to leave. It was powerful, inspiring, and a total high, I think, for everybody.

There was so much feedback about how vulnerable the poets were, how the poems pulled no punches about the abuse. Some people said they had never heard a particular topic spoken of before. I think many were amazed that we weren’t all struck dead by lightning for saying and hearing such things. The rule of silence sure the hell was broken many times over in those 2 1/4 hours!

None of the attendees knew what was going to be shared when they signed up so, in my mind, it was a small experiment to see how many survivors lived through what. What surprised me was that several people said in the chat that they had experienced abuse by Nazi doctors. I think this is something that screams to be brought out in the open.

I remember the days when government mind control programming was never spoken of publicly. Why? Fear and denial. “If I even allude to this, they will find out and come and kill me.” “Our own government couldn’t have done anything like that, not in a million years.” I think we are in that same stage now regarding the Nazi mind control experts that were brought over during Project Paperclip.

The reasoning behind quietly bringing German war criminals to the US was that they were too dangerous to leave where they were – they probably would just go underground and keep doing what they had been doing all along. And that it was better to have them working for us than for Germany. I think that it would have been far better to have had them working for nobody at all and to have had them tried and brought to justice.

There were other things, of course, that elicited a “You, too? I thought I was the only one!” That was what brought such a sense of cohesion, of community, to the group.

The elation I felt was accompanied by a deep sadness. There is such a need for survivors to find each other, to talk, to meet over the Internet and on video conferences. And to meet in person, one on one, and in groups. There is practically nothing out there for us. What little exists is hard to find, and so people remain isolated.

The scarcity makes it seem like it is dangerous for survivors to connect, both because the abusers will find out and take revenge and because, in some way, contact with other survivors is intrinsically dangerous. They might be plants and lure you back into the cult. They might not have worked out their issues and you risk physical or psychological violence. Listening to their memories might contaminate your own; you might end up believing things about yourself that are not true.

Of course, it is only sensible to be cautious around survivors, just as you are cautious around other people. Test the waters before you trust. But the vast majority of survivors I have met are brave and kind people. They have made a deep commitment to being different from their abusers.

The environment of fear and isolation is especially sad to me because it hasn’t always been like this. When I first remembered, it was so easy to find others and to make friends with them! And it continued that way for several years until the False Memory Syndrome Foundation people won the media over and intimidated therapists and survivors alike with lawsuits.

It took me exactly three weeks from my first flashback to meet another RA survivor. There were several conferences a year in Massachusetts on ritual abuse. When I moved to San Francisco, there were daily “Nothing Too Heavy to Share” meetings (Survivors of Incest Anonymous meetings for RA survivors) within a half hour’s drive – sometimes two a day. Three Survivorship conferences a year. Poetry readings in bookstores. People having lunch and coffee together, forming their own non-12-step groups, sharing apartments.

All that has faded away. It’s time to do something about it and start bringing people together. We need connection and healing, not fear and isolation. Who can make it happen?

You! Me! Us! As Lily Tomlin said, “I always wondered why somebody doesn’t do something about that. Then I realized I was somebody.” Go for it!

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I sent out a follow-up questionnaire and learned that people wanted another poetry reading. Now that we know what we are doing (I think!) we can offer that. The three co-hosts and planners, River, Leni, and I, just need to get out our calendars and pick a date.

The other thing people were interested in were Webinars. I’ve had experience with Webinars from Survivorship, as I organized and hosted a Webinar series for them. That was a dozen years ago, and the apps weren’t nearly as good as they are today, so technically it was more difficult. It was a perpetual challenge with things breaking down, trying to work around problems, and explaining the software to the attendees. The other challenge came at the end of the series when I had trouble finding new people to present. It should be a lot easier this time around.

I case you can’t tell, I’m still a little high from the experience!

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Here’s a summary of the questionnaire. Rather than emailing me (though of course you can do that), let’s respond to it in the comments section.

I want to be on the mailing list!                     

     yes ___ no ___  

Would you like another poetry reading?

     yes ___ no ___

Are you interested in reading your poetry?

     yes ___ no ___

Would you like to have an art exhibit?

     yes ___ no ___

Are you interested in sharing your artwork?

     yes ___ no ___

Would you like a musical performance?

     yes ___ no ___

Are you interested in sharing your music?

     yes ___ no ___

Would you like some Webinars?

yes ___ no ___

Suggested topics?

Would you be willing to give a Webinar?

     yes ___ no ___

Can’t wait to learn what y’all want!

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Upcoming Holidays

July

7/23 Full Moon 
7/25 St. James’ Day/Festival of the Horned God 
7/27 Grand Climax

August

8/1 Lammas/Lughnasadh 
8/13 Friday the 13th 
8/15 (?) Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary 
8/22 Full Moon 
8/24 St. Bartholomew’s Day

September

9/5 – 9/7 Feast of the Beast/Marriage of the Beast 
9/7 Labor Day (United States) 
9/20 Full moon 
9/22 Fall Equinox 
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups

7/29 Hitler proclaimed leader of the Nazi party 
9/1 Start of WW2 
9/7 Rosh Hashana (Jewish New Year, Day of Judgement) 
9/16 Yom Kippur (Jewish Day of Atonement) 
9/17 Hitler’s alternate half-birthday 
9/21 – 9/27 Sukkot (Feast of Tabernacles, Jewish harvest festival

(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices, and the equinoxes.)

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Additional information on various holidays:

Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/category/lamas/
and https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-il
Fall Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/
Halloween (personal): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/
Halloween (background): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/
Thanksgiving: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/thanksgiving/
Yule/Winter Solstice: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/
Candlemas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/candlemas/
Valentine’s Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/
Spring Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/ 
Easter: personal. (for background, see Spring Equinox): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/
Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/
Beltane: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/beltane/
Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/
Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/
Summer Solstice (corrected text): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/

Now You Can’t Use Your MasterCard to View Child Pornography

* There are two announcements at the end of this article.

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There’s another huge victory in the fight against child pornography and non-consensual (i.e. rape) pornographic videos on the Internet. MasterCard stepped up to the plate!

My feeling is that MasterCard (and let us hope Visa, as well) has been working on sanctions against porn sites since December when a New York Times article (https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/04/opinion/sunday/pornhub-rape-trafficking.html) was instrumental in forcing Pornhub to delete around 10 million videos from its site. https://fightthenewdrug.org/new-york-times-op-ed-exposed-pornhub/

An article by Bloomberg News https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2021-04-14/mastercard-rewrites-rules-for-banks-backing-pornography-sellers spells out the conditions under which Mastercard will conduct business with banks.

Banks have long stated they do not accept charges for illegal transactions. This is fine, but if it is widely known that they do not enforce these regulations, consumers feel free to charge anything they care to.

MasterCard has updated the requirements it sets for banks to process payments for sellers of pornography, making them much more specific. Websites must have “clear, unambiguous and documented consent” for adult content and they must require that websites document the age and verify the identity of anyone appearing on-screen as well as those uploading the content.

If they cannot produce this documentation, they must take down posted material and the banks will not allow charges for the use of their site.

I wrote about the link between ritual abuse and child pornography earlier https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/11/21/great-good-news-pornhub/. There is good news about Thailand’s moved to hurt pornography sites in the pocketbook and protect children from exploitation in the sex tourism business.

Canada is another hot spot of activism. I want to share with you three projects of an organization called The Canadian Centre for Child Protection. The Centre supports both survivors and families, male and female survivors. adult, teen, pre-teen, and younger survivors. It has a large referral network and free downloadable books for adults and children.

Ongoing projects include:

Cybertip.Ca receives 10,000 tips a month about child sexual abuse on the Internet. These are forwarded to the appropriate child welfare agency or law enforcement agency. Cybertip.ca

Project Arachnid, an automated web crawler, searches child pornography sites identified through Cybertip, notifies offending websites, and demands removal of that material. It has also used data from images obtained through Cybertip to design criteria for images of child sexual abuse on other sites. https://projectarachnid.ca/en/

Statistics from their website: 127 billion images processed – 39 million images triggered for analyst review – 7.5 million notices sent to providers – 85% of these notices relate to victims who are not known to have been identified by the police.

The Centre’s International Survivors’ Survey reports the findings from data submitted by 150 adult survivors from around the world. A summary and the complete data are available on the site to download in pdf form. I read highlights of the summary and it took me over an hour! The complete report is 385 pages. I think I will bookmark it and work through it slowly in therapy –  if I have the courage. https://protectchildren.ca/en/resources-research/survivors-survey-results/

The survey remains open if you are interested in adding your voice. You don’t have to complete it in one sitting and you can skip questions.

I feel happy at the developments but totally drained after writing this.

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* Look at the June 8th post for an invitation to an online poetry reading, “Ritual Abuse Survivors Read Their Poems of Suffering and Healing,” on Saturday, July 10.

* The International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation (ISSTD) Regional Conference (in-person ): “Changing Landscapes: Transforming the Way We Understand and Treat Complex Trauma.”
October 1 -2, 2021
Central YMCA of Toronto, Canada
Presenters: Christine Forner, D Michael Coy, Colin A Ross, and Peter Maves.
Information: https://www.isst-d.org/training-and-conferences/upcoming-conferences/toronto-regional-conference/

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Upcoming Holidays

June
6/20 Fathers’ Day
6/21 Summer solstice
6/23 Midsummer’s Eve
6/24 (?) St John’s Day
6/24 Full Moon

July
7/4 Independence Day
7/23 Full Moon
7/25 St. James’ Day/Festival of the Horned God
7/27 Grand Climax

August
8/1 Lammas/Lughnasadh
8/13 Friday the 13th
8/15 (?) Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary
8/22 Full Moon
8/24 (?) St. Bartholomew’s Day

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
7/18 Tisha B’Av (Jewish Day of Mourning)
7/29 Hitler proclaimed leader of the Nazi party

(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices, and the equinoxes.)

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Additional information:

 Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/

 Summer Solstice (corrected text) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/

 Lammas https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/category/lamas/

 and https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/ 

Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1 https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/

Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2 https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-ii/

Fall Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/

Halloween {personal) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/ 

Halloween (background) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/

Thanksgiving https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/thanksgiving/

Yule/Winter Solstice https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/ 

Candlemas https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/candlemas/

Valentine’s Day https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/

Spring Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/

Easter: personal. (for background, see Spring Equinox)  https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/

Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/

Beltane: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/beltane/

Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/

Great Good News – Pornhub

And Some Pretty Dismal News:

On December 21, the European Union’s ePrivacy Directive will make it illegal to use technology to detect online child sexual exploitation. The EU Parliament is currently debating a provision that would make an exception in this case. The ePrivacy Directive is a temporary measure that will expire in 2015. If this exception is not passed, children will be without any protection for five years. There is a strong chance that the provisions of the ePrivacy Directive will be incorporated into the final document.

You can help protect children by learning more and signing the petition to the European Union Parliament members. 

Background from The National Center for Missing and Exploited Children: https://www.missingkids.org/childsafetyfirst 

The petition itself: https://www.change.org/p/we-are-in-danger-of-losing-the-global-battle-for-child-safety?utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=custom_url&recruited_by_id=22e1af90-2851-11eb-a791-515174202d1b 

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As you know, pornography on the web is a multi-billion dollar business. Some say 97 billion dollars. That’s probably a wild exaggeration, but in any case, it’s a lot of money.

You can easily find pornography with “adult content” with a quick search. I am reluctant to look for, let alone watch, pornography, but for this article, I used duckduckgo to search for male-female pornography. The top hit was https://www.pornhub.com/video/search?search=male/female

“Male/female Porn Videos | Pornhub.com
Watch Male/female porn videos for free, here on Pornhub.com. Discover the growing collection of high quality Most Relevant XXX movies and clips. No other sex tube is more popular and features more Male/female scenes than Pornhub! Browse through our impressive selection of porn videos in HD quality on any device you own.”

According to Pornhub’s “Year in Review,” (https://www.pornhub.com/insights/2019-year-in-review#2019), there were 42 billion visits in 2019 – 115 million a day – and 39 billion searches. Of those, “teen” was the twelfth most popular. Of course, all the teens are over eighteen, right? And all the viewers are over eighteen, too.

Pornhub claims that non-consensual and child pornography is strictly prohibited on the site, but I do not believe it explains how it enforces this policy. I have trouble believing enforcement is even possible.

Home-made, as well as commercial videos, are posted on Pornhub. I imagine that it is even harder to monitor those films for the rape of adults, let alone children. (By the way, non-consensual, coerced, or forced sex is rape.)

An advocate group called Traffickinghub is working to shut down Pornhub and hold its executives accountable for aiding sexual trafficking. Petitions, media campaigns, pressure on governments, all are ways in which they seek leverage. Learn how you can support them at https://traffickinghub.com/.

Their work has just paid off!

Read this: “Thailand Shuts Down Pornhub For Violating Computer Crimes Act.” https://exoduscry.com/blog/changinglaws/breaking-thailand-shuts-down-pornhub-for-violating-computer-crimes-act/?goal=0_c15bff8d91-3933a2516a-86660702&mc_cid=3933a2516a&mc_eid=a2265e2517

Thailand joins Russia, China, Saudi Arabia, and The Philippines in banning Pornhub. It has also banned 190 other pornography sites!

Thailand has long been known as a center for child sex tourism, and teens, aa well as younger boys and girls, are freely available for sex in Bangkok and other parts of the country. Bangkok is Pornhub’s 10th largest customer base, and Thai users spend more time at the site than any other nationality in the world. This, of course, is a major income stream for the company.

Another way Pornhub might be hurt financially is if the government follows up by cracking down on the production of videos with Thai minors. If they can no longer get these popular (and free) child “actors” and “actresses,” they will lose money from all over the world.

Grassroots protest movements can be effective! That, to me, is very heartening. It shows that power generated peacefully when people come together can stand up against the power of Big Money.

One last word about the connection between sex trafficking and ritual abuse –

Many, many children who were ritually abused have been sold into child prostitution or child pornography to bring money to the cult. Some have remembered, some have not. Needless to say, it affects the victim’s life profoundly in every area.

Another link, which I am just beginning to think about, is that the techniques that pimps use to keep their victims enslaved are sometimes derived from mind control programming developed under MKULTRA and other government/military programs. I am not sure of this, as I have not read any survivor stories or studies (that I remember), but it seems likely to me. If programmed children are flowing into the pornography business, pimps would meet their handlers and ask details of how the children had been trained.

Knowledge, like water, doesn’t like to be confined.

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Upcoming Holidays

November
11/26 Thanksgiving Day (United States)
11/30 Full moon
11/30 St Andrew’s Day

December
Sundays of advent: 11/28, 12/5, 12/12, 12/19
12/14 New moon
12/14 Total solar eclipse. Totality will be visible in Chile and parts of Argentina. Partial eclipse will be visible in southern South America and south-east Africa. See https://www.timeanddate.com/eclipse/map/2020-december-14
12/21 Winter solstice/Yule/St. Thomas’ Day
12/24 Christmas Eve
12/25 Christmas Day
12/29 Full moon
12/31 New Year’s Eve

January
1/1 New Year’s Day
1/6 (?) Epiphany/Three Kings’ Day
1/7 St Winebald’s Day
1/13 New Moon
1/13 Satanic New Year
1/17 Feast of Fools/Old Twelfth Night/Satanic and demon revels
1/18 (?) Martin Luther King Jr. Day
1/20 (?) St. Agnes’ Eve
1/28 Full moon

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
11/29 -12/16 Chanukah/Hanukkah (Jewish Festival of Lights)
(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices, and the equinoxes.)

 ~~~~~~~~~~* You can find more information on the following holidays at: 
Thanksgiving https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/thanksgiving/
Yule/Winter Solstice https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/ 
Candlemas https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/candlemas/
Valentine’s Day https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/
Spring Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/
Easter: (personal) For background, see Spring Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/
Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/
Beltane: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/beltane/
Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/
Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/
Summer Solstice (corrected text) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/
Lammas https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/category/lamas/
and https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1 https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2 https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-ii/
Fall Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/
Halloween (personal) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/
Halloween (background) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/

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