Happy about Very Important Things and Very Small Things

“In perhaps one of the greatest breakthroughs ever against criminal pornography, Pornhub just removed from its site 10 million+ unverified videos—nearly 75% of its entire video collection.” (from an email to me from Traffickinghub.)

“The Traffickinghub campaign…is a non-religious, non-partisan effort to hold the largest porn website in the world accountable for enabling and profiting off of the mass sex trafficking and exploitation of women and minors. The campaign is facilitated by Exodus Cry and supported by over 300 child protection and anti-trafficking organizations, as well as experts on and survivors of commercial sexual exploitation.”  https://traffickinghub.com 

 

This makes me very happy! It does nothing to remove copies of porn videos already downloaded, of course. But it prevents further distribution of over 10 MILLION videos from this website! It hits them where it hurts, in the pocketbook. And it sends a message to the world (including all the other porn sites) that criminal pornography is NOT OKAY. 

I keep wondering if there are copies of films made of me 70 years ago available in some obscure corner of the Internet. It’s certainly possible. I know that a survivor who is only 15 years younger than me found films of their childhood abuse. I’m not willing to go look for mine, though. If they show up in my inbox uninvited, that’s another story. But they won’t.

One good thing about being abused like this 70 years ago is that nobody who comes across those films will recognize me. Everybody who was involved is either dead or senile. Girls who went to school with me aren’t the type to be rooting around the Dark Web looking for vintage porn. In that sense, I am safe.

I wonder how many of the people whose abuse was filmed know that their videos have been erased from Pornhub. If they know, I wonder how they feel. Many won’t know that their assaults were made public for the whole world to see. Many are too young to even understand that cameras take pictures, let alone that crimes have been committed against them, and that IS WRONG and not their fault. 

I am pretty sure I would be assaulted by a kaleidoscope of feelings – joy, shame, despair, anger, relief, fear, gratitude, worry, and back to the beginning. I’m also damn sure that my life would not instantaneously get any better. Whenever a breakthrough happens, there is a life-long fight to deal with the effects of the savagery of the harm done.

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Other things are making me happy right now. One is that winter is both about to begin and beginning to end. Tomorrow, the days will be getting longer, not shorter. Minute by minute, we are approaching the time when bulbs I planted and forgot will break their dormancy. In a couple of months, birds will be showing off in song to attract a mate. Ants will stop coming into my home in search of food. Hooray for more daylight! Hooray for spring!

Something else that delights me is that I have discovered that both coffee grounds and citrus peels get rid of ants. (I am easily pleased these days.) I mean, ants are interesting little fellows, but not in my house, please. Or on my hands. Or in my hair. Go back to the great outdoors, where you belong


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I hope that you all stay safe through the coming holidays. If you are still being abused, please don’t lose hope, please don’t give up. Escaping is a trial-and-error process. If you keep trying, one day you will find a way to get out and stay out forever. For those of you who have escaped, I hope the memories of past holidays are easier to deal with than they were in past years. I hope you can remember how to soothe the parts of you who hold these memories, how to tell them they are loved and they are not being hurt now.

I send you all strength, courage, and belief in your own worth.


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Upcoming Holidays

December
12/21 Winter solstice/Yule/St. Thomas’ Day
12/24 Christmas Eve
12/25 Christmas Day
12/29 Full moon
12/31 New Year’s Eve

January
1/1 New Year’s Day
1/6 (?) Epiphany/Three Kings’ Day
1/7 St Winebald’s Day
1/13 New Moon
1/13 Satanic New Year
1/17 Feast of Fools/Old Twelfth Night/Satanic and demon revels
1/18 (?) Martin Luther King Jr. Day
1/20 (?) St. Agnes’ Eve
1/28 Full moon

February
2/2 Candlemas/Imbolc/Satanic Revels
2/11 New moon
2/14 Valentine’s Day
2/12 (?) Lincoln’s Birthday
2/15 (?) Presidents’ Day/Washington’s birthday
2/16 Shrove Tuesday/ Mardi Gras
2/17 Ash Wednesday/beginning of Lent
2/25 Walpurgis Day
2/27 Full Moon

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
1/28 Tu Bishvat/Tu B’Shevat (Jewish celebration of spring)
1/12 Birth of both Rosenberg and Goering, Nazi Leaders in WWII
1/30 Hitler named Chancellor of Germany
2/26 Purim (Deliverance of the Jewish people from Haman in Persia)
(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices, and the equinoxes.)

* You can find more information on the following holidays at:
Yule/Winter Solstice https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/
Candlemas https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/candlemas/
Valentine’s Day https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/
Spring Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/
Easter: (personal) For background, see Spring Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/
Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/
Beltane: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/beltane/
Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/
Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/
Summer Solstice (corrected text) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/
Lammas https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/category/lamas/
and https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1 https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2 https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-ii/
Fall Equinox https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/
Halloween (personal) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/
Halloween (background) https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/
Thanksgiving https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/thanksgiving/

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