* Information on Satanic holidays are now at the end of the post.
Every time I start to write a blog post about ritual abuse, I am afraid I won’t be able to think of anything to say. I have no new ideas. Everything has already been said, and more than once, at that. Most times, I do manage to come up with something. It may not be great, but at least it is something.
But until I get it out of my mind and on to my computer, I am sure I will come up with a blank. Its not so much writer’s block as thinker’s block.
Of course, sometimes, I come up with nothing, and then I apologize my head off in the next scheduled blog post. I should just relax and accept that I, like everybody else, sometimes have nothing at all to say.
So here I am writing about having nothing to write about. Pretty silly!
Here is what blotted ritual abuse out of my mind.
I woke up yesterday (September 9) morning and thought the sun hadn’t risen. It was 8:00 AM. The light was a sickly orange-grey, and I couldn’t spot where the sun should have been. No birds were singing. My neighbors had their lights on. It was like being in a science fiction story and waking up on another planet with a dying sun. Five hours later, it was just about the same.
I hit the computer and learned that heavy smoke and ash from the wildfires up north had risen high into the atmosphere and were being pushed south by the winds at that level. The plume of smoke floated over my city, San Francisco, and was prevented from falling by a high-pressure area off the ocean. The air on the ground was no worse than usual; there was no reason I couldn’t go outside and garden all day if I wanted to. I’m not in the habit of gardening in the dark – maybe I could have brought a flashlight?
The orange gloom lingered most of the day. By sunset, it had faded to a semi-normal haze of fog and high-altitude smog. Today, it’s just dark and foggy, and the air quality is AWFUL! It’s the worst in the whole world. Go check out PurpleAir.com if you think I am exaggerating.
Nobody in California has read or heard of such a thing, let alone experienced it.
It is very frightening to see the world changing so rapidly. The third highest temperature ever recorded on earth was logged at 130 degrees in Death Valley on August 16. Perhaps it was the highest, as the accuracy of the other two readings is in doubt. California has already seen twice as much land burned as last year, and we haven’t even officially entered the fire season. Every day is a “Spare the Air Day,” which I find sort of pathetic. We are being asked not to burn wood, as if anybody in their right mind would think of building a fire in their fireplace in the middle of a heat wave.
This weird event is temporarily blotting out my awareness of ritual abuse, as well as temporarily blotting out the sun. I wish something blazingly wonderful would happen to turns my thoughts away from RA, but I cannot imagine anything as spectacularly wonderful as this has been awful. Maybe next week, please?
9/22 Fall Equinox
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels
10/1 Full moon
10/12 Columbus Day (?)
10/13 Backward Halloween
10/31 Full moon (Blue Moon)
10/31 Halloween/start of Celtic New Year/start of the dark half of the year
11/1 All Saints’ Day
11/2 All Souls’ Day
11/11 Veterans’ Day (?)
11/13 Friday the thirteenth
11/14 New moon
11/26 Thanksgiving Day (United States)
11/30 St. Andrew’s Day
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels
Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
9/16 Yom Kippur (Jewish Day of Atonement)
9/21 – 9/27 Sukkot (Feast of Tabernacles, Jewish harvest festival)
10/12 Hitler’s alternate half birthday (Note: Hitler was born on Easter, so Nazis celebrate his actual half-birthday, 10/20, and his alternate half-birthdate six months after Easter, which fell on 4/12 this year.)
10/20 Hitler’s half birthday
10/16 Death of Rosenburg
10/12 10/19 Death of Goering
11/29 -12/16 Chanukah/Hanukkah (Jewish Festival of Lights)
(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish or Christian holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices and the equinoxes.)
* You can find more information on the following holidays at:
Fall Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/
Halloween (personal): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/
Halloween (background): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/
Yule/Winter Solstice: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/
Valentine’s Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/
Spring Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/
Easter: personal (for background, see Spring Equinox): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/
Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/
Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/
Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/
Summer Solstice (corrected text): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/
and Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-ii/
7 thoughts on “Blank Mind and Orange Sky”
I can relate to what you wrote in a way. I’m on Texas gulf coast and recently two hurricanes were headed our way—some surreal stuff!
Also watching the leader of the free world gaslight and act similarly to the people who abused me makes my job of staying grounded in mindfullness and compassion a constant challenge.
Just trying to stay on my spiritual path as best I can and it helps to read things from others who are doing the same and knowing I’m not alone.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
Oh, Wendy, I hear you. I have a friend in New Orleans and was/am very worried.
As for the other…there is very little I can do except remain true to myself. That doesn’t include not being afraid. I am very afraid about many things that are happening in the world and puzzled. too, as to how we got here. But if I implode it won’t help anybody so I just do the best I can, knowing my best will make very little difference. But that little bit of difference counts, and I have to remember that.
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I so agree with you on that, Jean, it does count.
i’m very north of you in Canada. we experience forest fire smoke blackouts (smaller scale) it seems every 4 years. it’s scary every time; even ash falling out of the sky volcano-esque.
it’s hard for me when the birds don’t sing.
Did it get that weird orange? Or was it more like dark? I have seen ash fall, even chunks of paper, but it was nothing like this. I think it was because the smoke and ash was at 40,000 feet and the air below was “normal.”
Today the smoke plume has touched down and the air is saturated with smoke. I hope this doesn;’t last too long!
yes, it did get orange in the beginning and towards the end when the fires were finally extinguished. but in the middle it was pitch black, very much like nighttime during a new moon. it triggered my early learning of abusive apocalyptic teachings; not good.
but it did end and the light came back, the birds resumed their singing. such relief.
i hope you are finally getting fresh air and cleansing ocean breeze.
Boy. pitch black sounds terrifying.
thank goodness things are back to normal here. One day was enough for me!!!!!