Rant on Chronic Diseases Caused by Ritual Abuse, Continued

* You can find more information on the following holidays at:

Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-ii/
Fall Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/
Halloween (personal): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/
Halloween (background): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/
Thanksgiving: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/thanksgiving/
Yule/Winter Solstice: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/
Candlemas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/candlemas/
Valentine’s Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/
Spring Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/
Easter: personal (for background, see Spring Equinox): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/
Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/
Beltane: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/beltane/
Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/
Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/
Summer Solstice (corrected text): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/
Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/category/lamas/
and Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/


There was a large, well-done study of selected adverse childhood events (ACES.) These adverse events consisted of:
Emotional abuse
Physical abuse
Sexual abuse
Mother treated violently
Substance abuse in the household
Mental illness in the household
Parental separation or divorce
Incarcerated household member
Emotional neglect
Physical neglect

I assume that ritual abuse counts as experiencing emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, mental illness in the household, and emotional neglect. That’s a score of 5, which is considered high.

Here is the questionnaire, scoring directions, statistics on prevalence, and correlation with selected conditions. There is also a resilience questionnaire. https://acestoohigh.com/got-your-ace-score/

An article entitled “Adverse Childhood Experiences Increase Risk for Chronic Diseases – It’s Not Psychological” (https://www.acesconnection.com/blog/adverse-childhood-experiences-increase-risk-for-chronic-diseases-it-s-not-psychological) summarizes the correlation between chronic disease and high ACE scores.

“For every increase in the ACE score of 1 point, risk for developing an autoimmune disease such as type 1 diabetes, lupus, rheumatoid arthritis and many others goes up by 20%.” https://chronicillnesstraumastudies.com/ace-fact-sheet/

Here’s a list of thirty-three diseases that are correlated with high ACE scores. It is from the webpage “Chronic Illness ACE Fact Sheets To Educate Your Doctor (Free Downloads).” https://chronicillnesstraumastudies.com/ace-fact-sheet/

Addison’s Disease
ADHD, Behavioral problems in children, problems concentrating in school
Celiac disease
Chronic Fatigue
COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease)
Coronary heart disease
Diabetes, type 1
Diabetes, type 2
Fibromyalgia (FMS)
High blood pressure (hypertension)
Idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis
Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
Inflammatory Bowel Disease (IBD)
Liver Disease
Lung Disease (Asthma, COPD)
Lupus (Systemic lupus erythematosus or SLE)
Multiple Sclerosis
Myasthenia Gravis
Rheumatoid arthritis
Sleep Disorders
Thrombocytopenia purpura
Thyroid, Grave’s
Thyroid, Hashimoto’s
Wegener’s granulomatosis
Poor self-related health

The webpage also lists other effects of ACEs
fractures and other injuries, intentional and not intentional: motor vehicle accidents, being the victim of shootings, stabbings
criminality (also see violence below)
more marriages and greater difficulty with relationships in general
intimate partner violence
low life satisfaction
parenting: greater challenges and difficulties
poor academic achievement
premature births
unintended pregnancy and parenthood in teen boys and girls


It’s too much. It’s just too much.

I think I have a right to rant often and loudly. I have a right to reject the label of “psychosomatic illness.” Ditto for” idiopathic.” Mirriam-Webster: “Of, relating to, or designating a disease having no known cause.” In other words, “I don’t know.” But I know, and I will tell you, even if you don’t ask. It’s too many ACES!

Having been blamed as a child for getting sick or told I was imagining or exaggerating things, I have a right to take myself and my body seriously. I always had that right, but I was told that I didn’t, and that I had to cede to adults, even if they were dead wrong. It’s not easy to go against those childhood beliefs, but, with practice, it can be done pretty effectively.

So now, if I have a new symptom or if a chronic condition gets worse, I tell my doctor. She knows I want answers to two questions, “What is causing this?” and, “What are we going to do about it?” I’m totally willing to accept an honest, “I don’t know” from a doctor, but fudging, guilt trips, or power trips are totally unacceptable. I had far too much of that as a kid.


Upcoming Holidays

9/1 Full moon
9/5 – 9/7 Feast of the Beast/Marriage of the Beast
9/7 Labor Day (United States)
9/22 Fall Equinox
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels
10/1 Full moon
10/12 Columbus Day (?)
10/13 Backward Halloween
10/31 Full moon (Blue Moon)
10/31 Halloween/start of Celtic New Year/start of the dark half of the year
11/1 All Saints’ Day
11/2 All Souls’ Day
11/11 Veterans’ Day (?)
11/13 Friday the thirteenth
11/14 New moon
11/26 Thanksgiving Day (United States)
11/30 St. Andrew’s Day
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
9/1 Start of WW2
9/7 Rosh Hashana (Jewish New Year, Day of Judgement)
9/16 Yom Kippur (Jewish Day of Atonement)
9/21 – 9/27 Sukkot (Feast of Tabernacles, Jewish harvest festival)
10/12 Hitler’s alternate half birthday (Note: Hitler was born on Easter, so Nazis celebrate his actual half-birthday, 10/20, and his alternate half-birthdate six months after Easter, which falls on 4/12 this year.)
10/20 Hitler’s half birthday
10/16 Death of Rosenburg
10/12 10/19 Death of Goering
10/31 Halloween
11/9 Kristallnacht
11/29 -12/16 Chanukah/Hanukkah (Jewish Festival of Lights)
(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish or Christian holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices and the equinoxes.)

4 thoughts on “Rant on Chronic Diseases Caused by Ritual Abuse, Continued

  1. I’m like this too, we have some names but most of the time, we just blend togheter and then fall apart. Or we have a shell which prevents and masks everyone that’s behind it. You’re not alone.


  2. Dear Jean,
    I saw your interview with Sarah on YouTube. I am in my 60’s and at the beginning of my journey. I have many serious medical conditions, all as a direct result of the abuse that started in infancy.

    I wept when you said you were too fragmented to have altars that have a name and a history and a purpose in life, –because I am finding out that I am that way too. Even my front person is many. I never know who I am bc I am many myself, and we are constantly switching. I have only one active named inside toddler and she is multiple too. Her name isn’t real. I can see large groups of little ones and I can’t see to the other side of the groups. They are terrified to come out of the shadows or be known or named.

    I am so lonely bc I don’t know anyone who is even remotely like me. You spoke of being relieved to make the acquaintance of other RA survivors, and to finally know there were other humans like you. I want so much to find a community like that locally or even online. My search is complicated by the fact that I have a hard time making technology work for me.

    I am searching for a therapist that knows RA and will take medicare bc I am disabled. I have been dumped by several T’s in less than a year. I cannot help thinking it’s our fault, even though all but one did not blame me.

    I hope it’s ok that I gave only the first name I go by. We are afraid to say even that but we are trying to be brave.

    I am sorry this reply is so long. I am sorry for the TMI. I am so glad you so graciously shared, on YouTube and here.


    1. Please don’t be sorry about writing too long a comment (you didn’t) or about TMI, whatever that is. And you can use whatever name you want.

      I always felt like an outlier in terms of being with other multiples(?) because I am so fragmented. Slowly, some others began to realize they were this way, too, and I didn’t feel like such a freak. I think that what happens to pple’s minds with this extreme degree of abuse is extremely complex and varied and is just beginning to be discovered – can’t say understood, but at least discovered. So I really get where you are coming from!

      I’ve written more about polyfragmentation. For example, https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/06/30/ritual-abuse-and-polyfragmentation/ Make sure you read the comments! You can search for polyfragmentation and also shell alters.

      I don’t know of any group of pple like us, either in person or on-line. I suppose you and I could start one. Frankly, I have found that email groups tend to fizzle out and I am tired of going through that. Maybe a ZOOM group would have better luck? In-person groups are almost impossible to find these days.

      If you write me at rahome@ra-info.org (“contact us”) on my web site, I can help you with your therapist search. It’s hard to find pple who can take Medicaid and have openings and know what they are doing. As if I am tellinng you something you don’t already know!

      Thanks for writing. Just hearing from you has made me feel better!


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