Halloween 2018

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I am thinking of all the people, adults as well as children, who will be hurt this Halloween. And all the animals who will be sacrificed. I have a special sadness for the black cats that will be killed, as I had a black kitty named Bobcat.

I wish I could somehow help everybody escape. Of course I can’t, but I still wish I could. I know that all I can do is tell my truth, that I was born into an intergenerational Satanic cult and that I escaped and, with a lot of hard work, made a happy, productive life for myself. I, and countless other survivors, are living proof that it can be done. And if somebody who is still enslaved happens to read about one of us, it may inspire them to free themselves.

You know, if enough people break their programming, there won’t be any more abusive cults!!! Attrition, that’s what we can hope for. That some day there will be only one Satanic circle left, and it will consist of three toothless old men who are having trouble remembering the rituals. It won’t be in my lifetime, but that is okay.

To those of you who are still caught in their evil embrace, I wish freedom for you. If you are ready to try and get out, I urge you to make a safety plan for Halloween, if you haven’t already done so. And make a back-up plan, in case you need to change direction. It’s so much better to be prepared than to have to wing it while you are terrified. If you aren’t ready, there will be opportunities in the future.

And please remember that leaving is usually a process, not an event, like flipping a light switch. Each time you try, you learn something more and are stronger and better prepared for the next attempt. Just because this attempt failed doesn’t mean the next one is fated to fail, too. Keep hoping, have faith that you will be able to escape, and keep plotting how you will do so.

For those of you who are out, whether it be for a few years or many, parts of you may not really believe this. They may feel fear and despair and their feelings may be communicated to you. Please try and remember that this is a “feeling flashback,” not reality. Talk to those parts (don’t expect an answer) and tell them that you are sorry horrible things happened to them and glad that they are alive and trust you enough to let you know how they feel. Do what you can to soothe them – in doing so you will soothe yourself.

I am in a phase where I am not very reactive to Satanic holidays. I can’t say I like any part of Halloween, but I am not going to freak out. This year will be a real test of whether or not I have flashbacks.

You see, I have cataract surgery scheduled for October 30! I had one eye done in January, so I am prepared for what will happen. It’s still not the best choice of days, I must admit. Especially as they threatened to blind me if I didn’t obey. But that is another story.

This time I get to blame the insurance company, not the cult. They will only cover the surgery if it performed in one place, a day surgery clinic. The clinic doesn’t have enough space to accommodate all the surgeons who want to use it so the waiting list is very long. I was originally scheduled to have it done on June 30, six months after my first surgery. Unfortunately I got an infection and they had to cancel it. I was then offered a date in January 2019 but talked my way onto the waiting list for a cancellation. When I lucked out, I took a deep breathe and accepted the October date.

It will be fine.

I’ll be thinking of all of you during those days and holding you in my heart with great tenderness.

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UPCOMING HOLIDAYS

October

10/24 Full Moon
10/31 Halloween/Samhain/All Hallow’s Eve/ Hallomas/ All Souls Day/Start of the Celtic new year.
November

11/1 All Saints’ Day
11/22 US Thanksgiving
11/23 Full Moon
December
12/21 Yule/Winter Solstice
12/22 Full Moon
12/24 Christmas Eve
12/25 Christmas Day
12/31 New Year’s Eve

Dates important to Neo-Nazi groups

11/9 Kristallnacht
(Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lamas, Halloween, the solstices and the equinoxes)

21 thoughts on “Halloween 2018

  1. Jean…Best wishes for your surgery tomorrow. I’ll be thinking of you!

    I too see my therapist on the 31st. I’m also doing something new. Instead of staying holed up in my room I am doing some activities with a friend after my therapy appointment. Safe activities with a person who knows my history…ceramics, movie, and dinner.

    Thanks for all your supportive and informative posts.

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  2. Hi everyone, Jean, wish you the best with your eye, it will be great once done.
    I’m having a horrendous time and am going to River Oaks tomoro. My other choice is to live in my bed for the rest of my life. This year has been really anxiety ridden..panic attacks, meltdowns, screwing up on dates….my neighbors have seen it, they will be pushing me out the door tomoro!!!!
    I ask the Universe to protect all.
    Blessings to all
    Tracy

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    1. Oh, Tracy, I am so happy for you! Not happy that you have had to experience this awful paralysis, but happy that you are going to a place where hopefully you will get to the bottom of it and turn the tide around. And I am glad you will be there for Halloween.

      I doubt if you will have Internet at River Oaks, but if by any chance you do, can you write a short comment and let us know how it is going?

      I am sending you courage and insight and strong protection, and I am sure others are holding you in their heart and prayers.

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  3. All of my parts and I hate Halloween, we were part of a satanic cult too. We will be thinking of you on the 30th and hoping your surgery goes well. I for one am so glad we’re out now. We see our psychiatrist on Halloween and our therapist the day after so we have a lot of support. xox

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    1. Thanks for the well wishes for the surgery.

      Boy. that’s great that you see your psychiatrist on Halloween and your therapist the day after!!!!! And I am so glad you are out, too.

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