Blank Mind and Orange Sky

* Information on Satanic holidays are now at the end of the post.

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Every time I start to write a blog post about ritual abuse, I am afraid I won’t be able to think of anything to say. I have no new ideas. Everything has already been said, and more than once, at that. Most times, I do manage to come up with something. It may not be great, but at least it is something.

But until I get it out of my mind and on to my computer, I am sure I will come up with a blank. Its not so much writer’s block as thinker’s block.

Of course, sometimes, I come up with nothing, and then I apologize my head off in the next scheduled blog post. I should just relax and accept that I, like everybody else, sometimes have nothing at all to say.

So here I am writing about having nothing to write about. Pretty silly!

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Here is what blotted ritual abuse out of my mind.

I woke up yesterday (September 9) morning and thought the sun hadn’t risen. It was 8:00 AM. The light was a sickly orange-grey, and I couldn’t spot where the sun should have been. No birds were singing. My neighbors had their lights on. It was like being in a science fiction story and waking up on another planet with a dying sun. Five hours later, it was just about the same.

View from my bedroom window at 8 AM

I hit the computer and learned that heavy smoke and ash from the wildfires up north had risen high into the atmosphere and were being pushed south by the winds at that level. The plume of smoke floated over my city, San Francisco, and was prevented from falling by a high-pressure area off the ocean. The air on the ground was no worse than usual; there was no reason I couldn’t go outside and garden all day if I wanted to. I’m not in the habit of gardening in the dark – maybe I could have brought a flashlight?

The orange gloom lingered most of the day. By sunset, it had faded to a semi-normal haze of fog and high-altitude smog. Today, it’s just dark and foggy, and the air quality is AWFUL! It’s the worst in the whole world. Go check out PurpleAir.com if you think I am exaggerating.

Nobody in California has read or heard of such a thing, let alone experienced it.

View from my living room window at 5 PM

It is very frightening to see the world changing so rapidly. The third highest temperature ever recorded on earth was logged at 130 degrees in Death Valley on August 16. Perhaps it was the highest, as the accuracy of the other two readings is in doubt. California has already seen twice as much land burned as last year, and we haven’t even officially entered the fire season. Every day is a “Spare the Air Day,” which I find sort of pathetic. We are being asked not to burn wood, as if anybody in their right mind would think of building a fire in their fireplace in the middle of a heat wave.

This weird event is temporarily blotting out my awareness of ritual abuse, as well as temporarily blotting out the sun. I wish something blazingly wonderful would happen to turns my thoughts away from RA, but I cannot imagine anything as spectacularly wonderful as this has been awful. Maybe next week, please?

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Upcoming Holidays

September
9/22 Fall Equinox
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels
October
10/1 Full moon
10/12 Columbus Day (?)
10/13 Backward Halloween
10/31 Full moon (Blue Moon)
10/31 Halloween/start of Celtic New Year/start of the dark half of the year
November
11/1 All Saints’ Day
11/2 All Souls’ Day
11/11 Veterans’ Day (?)
11/13 Friday the thirteenth
11/14 New moon
11/26 Thanksgiving Day (United States)
11/30 St. Andrew’s Day
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
9/16 Yom Kippur (Jewish Day of Atonement)
9/21 – 9/27 Sukkot (Feast of Tabernacles, Jewish harvest festival)
10/12 Hitler’s alternate half birthday (Note: Hitler was born on Easter, so Nazis celebrate his actual half-birthday, 10/20, and his alternate half-birthdate six months after Easter, which fell on 4/12 this year.)
10/20 Hitler’s half birthday
10/16 Death of Rosenburg
10/12 10/19 Death of Goering
10/31 Halloween
11/9 Kristallnacht
11/29 -12/16 Chanukah/Hanukkah (Jewish Festival of Lights)
(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish or Christian holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices and the equinoxes.)

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* You can find more information on the following holidays at:

Fall Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/
Halloween (personal): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/
Halloween (background): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/
Thanksgiving: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/thanksgiving/
Yule/Winter Solstice: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/
Candlemas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/candlemas/
Valentine’s Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/
Spring Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/
Easter: personal (for background, see Spring Equinox): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/
Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/
Beltane: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/beltane/
Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/
Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/
Summer Solstice (corrected text): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/
Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/category/lamas/
and Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-ii/

It’s So Hot I Surfed for Happy Videos

I wish I knew how to copy the videos off YouTube. But it is way too hot to try and learn today.

Anyway, I snooped around and found:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yNy9jTeolUk&t=169s

And if you don’t like the music try this one::
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPDUTgQFpq0&t=162s

When the temperature rose another couple of degrees, I discovered this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6VsR8_yCrOc

If you don’t like moose, how about this for happy:

I just did the thing I wanted to do and I have no idea how I did it so I can’t do it again. Very frustrating. On that note, I am heading for the shower.

Sorry, no selfies.

Rant on Chronic Diseases Caused by Ritual Abuse, Continued

* You can find more information on the following holidays at:

Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 1: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/08/31/the-feast-of-the-beast/
Feast of the Beast/Bride of Satan: Part 2: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/03/20/feast-of-the-beast-part-ii/
Fall Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/09/16/the-fall-equinox/
Halloween (personal): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/10/11/halloween/
Halloween (background): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2011/10/02/samhainhalloween/
Thanksgiving: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/thanksgiving/
Yule/Winter Solstice: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/yulewinter-solstice/
Candlemas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/candlemas/
Valentine’s Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/02/10/valentines-day/
Spring Equinox: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/the-spring-equinox/
Easter: personal (for background, see Spring Equinox): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/easter-blues/
Walpurgisnacht/May Eve: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2017/04/20/walpurgisnacht/
Beltane: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/beltane/
Mothers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2016/04/26/mothers-day/
Fathers’ Day: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2020/06/20/ritual-abuse-and-fathers-day/
Summer Solstice (corrected text): https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/well-this-is-embarrassing/
Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/category/lamas/
and Lammas: https://ritualabuse.wordpress.com/2012/07/23/august-ritual-dates/

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There was a large, well-done study of selected adverse childhood events (ACES.) These adverse events consisted of:
Emotional abuse
Physical abuse
Sexual abuse
Mother treated violently
Substance abuse in the household
Mental illness in the household
Parental separation or divorce
Incarcerated household member
Emotional neglect
Physical neglect

I assume that ritual abuse counts as experiencing emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, mental illness in the household, and emotional neglect. That’s a score of 5, which is considered high.

Here is the questionnaire, scoring directions, statistics on prevalence, and correlation with selected conditions. There is also a resilience questionnaire. https://acestoohigh.com/got-your-ace-score/

An article entitled “Adverse Childhood Experiences Increase Risk for Chronic Diseases – It’s Not Psychological” (https://www.acesconnection.com/blog/adverse-childhood-experiences-increase-risk-for-chronic-diseases-it-s-not-psychological) summarizes the correlation between chronic disease and high ACE scores.

“For every increase in the ACE score of 1 point, risk for developing an autoimmune disease such as type 1 diabetes, lupus, rheumatoid arthritis and many others goes up by 20%.” https://chronicillnesstraumastudies.com/ace-fact-sheet/

Here’s a list of thirty-three diseases that are correlated with high ACE scores. It is from the webpage “Chronic Illness ACE Fact Sheets To Educate Your Doctor (Free Downloads).” https://chronicillnesstraumastudies.com/ace-fact-sheet/

Addison’s Disease
ADHD, Behavioral problems in children, problems concentrating in school
Asthma
Cancer
Celiac disease
Chronic Fatigue
COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease)
Coronary heart disease
Dermatomyositis
Diabetes, type 1
Diabetes, type 2
Fibromyalgia (FMS)
High blood pressure (hypertension)
Idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis
Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
Inflammatory Bowel Disease (IBD)
Liver Disease
Lung Disease (Asthma, COPD)
Lupus (Systemic lupus erythematosus or SLE)
Multiple Sclerosis
Myasthenia Gravis
Obesity
Psoriasis
Rheumatoid arthritis
Scleroderma
Sjogren’s
Sleep Disorders
Stroke
Thrombocytopenia purpura
Thyroid, Grave’s
Thyroid, Hashimoto’s
Wegener’s granulomatosis
Poor self-related health

The webpage also lists other effects of ACEs
addictions
anxiety
depression
fractures and other injuries, intentional and not intentional: motor vehicle accidents, being the victim of shootings, stabbings
criminality (also see violence below)
more marriages and greater difficulty with relationships in general
intimate partner violence
low life satisfaction
parenting: greater challenges and difficulties
poor academic achievement
premature births
PTSD
unintended pregnancy and parenthood in teen boys and girls
self-harm
violence

 

It’s too much. It’s just too much.

I think I have a right to rant often and loudly. I have a right to reject the label of “psychosomatic illness.” Ditto for” idiopathic.” Mirriam-Webster: “Of, relating to, or designating a disease having no known cause.” In other words, “I don’t know.” But I know, and I will tell you, even if you don’t ask. It’s too many ACES!

Having been blamed as a child for getting sick or told I was imagining or exaggerating things, I have a right to take myself and my body seriously. I always had that right, but I was told that I didn’t, and that I had to cede to adults, even if they were dead wrong. It’s not easy to go against those childhood beliefs, but, with practice, it can be done pretty effectively.

So now, if I have a new symptom or if a chronic condition gets worse, I tell my doctor. She knows I want answers to two questions, “What is causing this?” and, “What are we going to do about it?” I’m totally willing to accept an honest, “I don’t know” from a doctor, but fudging, guilt trips, or power trips are totally unacceptable. I had far too much of that as a kid.

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Upcoming Holidays

September
9/1 Full moon
9/5 – 9/7 Feast of the Beast/Marriage of the Beast
9/7 Labor Day (United States)
9/22 Fall Equinox
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels
October
10/1 Full moon
10/12 Columbus Day (?)
10/13 Backward Halloween
10/31 Full moon (Blue Moon)
10/31 Halloween/start of Celtic New Year/start of the dark half of the year
November
11/1 All Saints’ Day
11/2 All Souls’ Day
11/11 Veterans’ Day (?)
11/13 Friday the thirteenth
11/14 New moon
11/26 Thanksgiving Day (United States)
11/30 St. Andrew’s Day
9/29 Michaelmas/Feast of Archangel Michael and of all Angels

Dates Important to Nazi and Neo-Nazi groups
9/1 Start of WW2
9/7 Rosh Hashana (Jewish New Year, Day of Judgement)
9/16 Yom Kippur (Jewish Day of Atonement)
9/21 – 9/27 Sukkot (Feast of Tabernacles, Jewish harvest festival)
10/12 Hitler’s alternate half birthday (Note: Hitler was born on Easter, so Nazis celebrate his actual half-birthday, 10/20, and his alternate half-birthdate six months after Easter, which falls on 4/12 this year.)
10/20 Hitler’s half birthday
10/16 Death of Rosenburg
10/12 10/19 Death of Goering
10/31 Halloween
11/9 Kristallnacht
11/29 -12/16 Chanukah/Hanukkah (Jewish Festival of Lights)
(NOTE: Not all groups meet on Jewish or Christian holidays. Some groups also mark Candlemas, Beltane, Lammas, Halloween, the solstices and the equinoxes.)